My ultimate dream when I was in college was to be a housewifeI like domestic duties and the thought of taking care of my husband and children makes me so happy.
But now I am not sure if I feel the same way because my work is one of my source of happiness (boss and friends) Also, I am admittedly magastos so I don't feel comfortable spending my husband's money. It also makes me feel good that my family is proud that I have a career.
Exactly. My boss lets me get away with murder. Pinagtatawanan nga ko ng friends and family ko na na promote pa e araw araw late parati pa absent. I do make up with my output. I work until past midnight and weekends if my boss needs something.
Yup. There's no chance we are getting back together. I did not mind before that he was a bum because I was too. But I've been working now for almost 10 yrs. He is in his mid 40s and nothing has changed in his life.
My Dad is my benchmark when it comes to men. He is perfect in my eyes. Decisive, strong character, leader type, protecting and caring. I'd hate to bring it up but the closest that comes to him is crush. Physically both tall, handsome (bias ako) and matikas. Lamang lang Dad ko kasi tisoy
My Dad juggled his corporate career and managing the family business with my Lolo. Crush is also the same, I told him he can afford to quit his corporate job and just manage their business pero he said saying naman pinag aralan niya.
Kaya bilib ako sa mga men na masipag, I can't respect a man who is satisfied with just staying at home or keeping a mediocre job. I am really attracted to powerful men![]()
I know women who don't mind being the breadwinner because that is a good way to control their husbands (he who pays the piper plays the tune!). I am not that type of woman because I want a man that can control me and I will be his servant![]()
It's one of those days again when my heart feels so heavy. I just found myself crying the whole night.
I really don't understand ako kasalanan ko sa mundo to deserve this life.
Its not healthy physically psychologically and mentally to be staying up til 4 am.It's said that idle hands are the devil's workshop
Depression is one of the worst things you're putting yourself into.
Sleep early, and hit the gym Saturday morning. It'll be good for you.
Worrying doesn't fix things, it only makes it worse.
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Tinamaan na naman ako ng lungkot.
Lahat ng tao dito sa bahay may sakitI get so sad whenever I am reminded that my family is ageing. My Auntie (eldest sister of my Mom) is due for heart surgery on Monday. I know she will make it easily but it makes me so sad, yung life cycle. My Lola is turning 91 and I pray that she lives longer, though my Kuya and I think she will make it to 100. Nakakapag mall pa ng naka cane lang e and still very sharp with finances.
I am also mid 30s and getting pressured to have children of my own, I feel bad when my Mom would show her affection for babies strangers and then they would comment that I should have my own. I think I am too idealistic when it comes to romance and family life. Masama rin ata na I have such good parents and a happy family growing up and I am afraid to have anything less. I am not kidding when I say that my parents ALWAYS put me first before themselves, unconditional love talaga. Even my Lola and Aunties, they never say no to me. Ayan tuloy naging masyado ako idealistic![]()
Sayang talaga kasi si crush, he gave me so much attention and made me feel so loved and cared for. I think he can match my family's love for me. Oh well...
it's your life, madam.
you are in charge of it.
however it turns out to be, let it not be said, na "kasalanan nila, dahil pinilit nila akong gumawa ng..."
30s is not yet too late, for anything.
one simply has to be clear to oneself, why one is doing so.
So long as you've expressed love, given love to the ones deserving. Life will be worthwhile. And That is something to be happy about.
Crush isn't capable of making you happy. Because he doesn't possess the things I mentioned above. He is selfish. He let you feel this misery. He let you down.
Love the ones who deserve to be loved.
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It's only in the past 5 years that I realized how hard it is not to have siblings, husband or kids. This is the time when family members started showing age related health problems. Now I am alone to take care of everything, iba yung marami kayo nagtutulungan. I am not complaining but it's hard to explain. For example, making decisions, going to the doctor, taking care of errands, kapag marami kayo nagtutulungan (not just financially but more on time emotions) It seems less scarier.
I think a family member needs surgery and I am so scared. Also, our surgeon is 92 yrs old! But my Mom and Tita says he is the best and only operates on special cases. I told them kaya pa ba ng 92 but they insist na this will be as easy as routine for him.