What Are You Thinking About?

[minicarph]

I had a death wish when I was younger and drove like a mad woman. I've been miserable for almost 2 decades and I'm close to giving up.

I would tell God, at a very young age, quota na ko sa paghihirap but it does NOT seem to stop. Uls knows my life story and he can attest to that. And you know what hurts the most? When people see me they think I am SHALLOW because of the way I look or act? But people have no idea how much problems I carry in my life.

Just an an example people would say "swerte unica hija" BUT do they know how much of a big responsibility it is and how difficult it is for an only child to take care of ageing parents? I have no siblings na kaagapay. And the anxiety I face everyday fearing the loss of the my nuclear family because they are all I have and they are ageing. Hindi naman nakikita ng mga nagco comment na "swerte" ko.

This board is my ONLY outlet for my thoughts and feelings because here I am anonymous. The exact reason why I do NOT do meet ups. People who know me personally know how very reserved I am. I don't like opening myself up because that makes me feel vulnerable and I don't like that feeling. I don't like getting attached because I've suffered too many losses in my life

And then I decided to take a chance and make myself vulnerable and then my heart got shattered into pieces. I would like to think matino akong babae and I was so careful in opening up myself to someone but why is my heart broken now? I don't deserve that at all. But why did it happen to me still.

tingen ko ang problema mo si uls. maghanap ka na ng iba makikinig sayo kasi di nag-work.

[remzam]

But why are there bad people who have all the luck and happiness in the world?



If only you knew my life story. Kaya I don't like getting close to people and I rarely open up kasi kaawaan lang ako.



I know how it is like to lose almost everything. I always ask God, bakit yung pinakamahalaga pa sakin ang kinuha. And it's nothing compared to financial issues which we also had and still have until now. Alam ko paano maghirap. That's a breeze compared to all the other problems I had to face. Nakikita ko isa isa lahat ng pinundar binebenta, just to keep our family afloat. And I feel sorry for my 90 yr old Lola.

And then for a while someone made me so happy and forgot that I was miserable. But that had to end. Because it was the right thing to do for both our sake.

In my life, happiness is fleeting.

You can look at it as happiness is fleeting. Or you can find happiness in so many things around you.

Told you before I teach di ba? One thing that I always tell my students is that, "Even in chaotic situation, even in calamity or death, we can find beauty in it. We can create beauty. We just have to see what others can't. What others won't."

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[remzam]

I had a death wish when I was younger and drove like a mad woman. I've been miserable for almost 2 decades and I'm close to giving up.

I would tell God, at a very young age, quota na ko sa paghihirap but it does NOT seem to stop. Uls knows my life story and he can attest to that. And you know what hurts the most? When people see me they think I am SHALLOW because of the way I look or act? But people have no idea how much problems I carry in my life.

Just an an example people would say "swerte unica hija" BUT do they know how much of a big responsibility it is and how difficult it is for an only child to take care of ageing parents? I have no siblings na kaagapay. And the anxiety I face everyday fearing the loss of the my nuclear family because they are all I have and they are ageing. Hindi naman nakikita ng mga nagco comment na "swerte" ko.

This board is my ONLY outlet for my thoughts and feelings because here I am anonymous. The exact reason why I do NOT do meet ups. People who know me personally know how very reserved I am. I don't like opening myself up because that makes me feel vulnerable and I don't like that feeling. I don't like getting attached because I've suffered too many losses in my life

And then I decided to take a chance and make myself vulnerable and then my heart got shattered into pieces. I would like to think matino akong babae and I was so careful in opening up myself to someone but why is my heart broken now? I don't deserve that at all. But why did it happen to me still.

Don't worry Cathy. Lahat ng tao, lahat dito dumaan dyan. Na broken heart din. Umiyak. Nag inom. Pero nag move on. And after a few years, as cliche as it may sound, tatawanan mo lang yan.

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[Calistro]

How to fix sleep schedule

[minicarph]

You can look at it as happiness is fleeting. Or you can find happiness in so many things around you.

Told you before I teach di ba? One thing that I always tell my students is that, "Even in chaotic situation, even in calamity or death, we can find beauty in it. We can create beauty. We just have to see what others can't. What others won't."

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teacher, pano kung yun na create mo beauty balang araw lalo paalala sayo na pangit ka, would that only make you more ugly or in denial

[ninjababez]

So many people have it way worse. Think PWDs, burn victims, rape victims, amputees, refugees, people with genetic deformities, SMEs na walang benta kaya ang daming time mag tsikot...

bro ano yun SME?

[forceG]

bro ano yun SME?

Small to Medium Enterprise..


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[CVT]

Wala ng convert convert pa... ,,😉😎😉

[EQAddict]

Well my wife had the roof of the mini cooper repainted a different color. As well as the mirrors. And she wanted the JCW stripes as well. So hintay hintay uli. Maybe 10 days. Twas my gift to her. And she is super excited. Secretly im wishing dapat sa akin na lang hahahaha.

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[lowslowbenz]

Doable ... no?

http://bowtie6.com/vw-beetle-subaru-swap/

[ninjababez]

San kaya nakakabili leatherette na tingi? May gusto ako diy e lol

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[forceG]

San kaya nakakabili leatherette na tingi? May gusto ako diy e lol

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Upholstery shops bro.. at the right price..


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[crosswind]

I'm glad that my 17year old SUV still drives the same since it was delivered to us 17 years ago. It can still run at triple digit speeds in a 4 hour trip to La Union.

[StockEngine]

I'm glad that my 17year old SUV still drives the same since it was delivered to us 17 years ago. It can still run at triple digit speeds in a 4 hour trip to La Union.

most car owners dont know recommended maintenance intervals. you sir are a rare breed👏👏👏

office life... reading dilbert comics isnt fun.

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[CVT]

I'm glad that my 17year old SUV still drives the same since it was delivered to us 17 years ago. It can still run at triple digit speeds in a 4 hour trip to La Union.

Abe Lincoln, civil war and the emancipation of slaves...

[Jun aka Pekto]

Now, my teammates want to meet and get serious with our group project in one of my university courses. I guess they're not happy the professor gave me the bulk of the points and the A.

The last two meetings were a total waste of time for me. So..... F-it. They can collaborate with me via email. I'm not even going to hook up my webcam.

[BratPAQ]

Hirap walang ginagawa sa trabaho, downtime. kahit dami ko pamatay oras, netflix, android games, pc games, tulog. still cant beat the feeling that at the end of the day you accomplished something.

[crosswind]

most car owners dont know recommended maintenance intervals. you sir are a rare breed👏👏👏

office life... reading dilbert comics isnt fun.

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Thanks bro!
Actually it was her first time to ply SCTEX and TPLEX. Still casa maintained just turned 70k kms last April . Even if it is in good condition I'm not comfortable bringing it anymore for long out of town trips hehe


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[_Cathy_]

I think I'm getting used to being miserable all the time. I'm just going through the motions.

[lowslowbenz]

Thanks bro!
Actually it was her first time to ply SCTEX and TPLEX. Still casa maintained just turned 70k kms last April . Even if it is in good condition I'm not comfortable bringing it anymore for long out of town trips hehe


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Nice.

Although I have to disagree with you with the out of town trips. Most modern cars are still capable. Yung 1988 300E ko nga can still keep up with its more modern siblings at 150-160 kph.

Stretching its legs, ika nga.