What Are You Thinking About?

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Sana masaya kayo making fun of someone who is so down already. Maybe I should stay away from the board as well and stick to it. You people have not the slightest idea what I am going through right now.

This is my ONLY outlet. Hindi naman ako nagsasabi sa pamilya ko sa mga kaibigan ko. And then I get mocked for it. For all those who showed concern for me, you have good hearts. I appreciate it.

Nadapa na nga sinipa sipa niyo pa

Hoy! Ano ka ba!? Sensitive mo naman ngayon?

Calling on uls. Patawanin mo naman si Cathy.


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[_Cathy_]

May nagsabi sa akin noon, the better question to ask is, "What have you ever done to deserve anything good?". Reflect on that.

But why are there bad people who have all the luck and happiness in the world?

So many people have it way worse. Think PWDs, burn victims, rape victims, amputees, refugees, people with genetic deformities, SMEs na walang benta kaya ang daming time mag tsikot...

If only you knew my life story. Kaya I don't like getting close to people and I rarely open up kasi kaawaan lang ako.

What is it that you want? And what is it that you really need? Those are two different things.


And tama si whistler. I'm not judging you Cathy but baka problema mo wala kang chocolate today, pero yung nasa kalye walang pang kain ng tatlong araw. Baka problema mo wala kang pang gasolina at pang insurance ng kotse mo, pero yung construction worker di alam san kukuha pamasahe sa jeep na 8 pesos. Or baka problema mo "sobrang taba" mo na, pero yung bata sa Baseco buto't balat, hindi dahil nagda-diet pero walang pambili ng pagkain.

(I used to frequent that place. Dati isang instant noodles pagsasaluhan ng isang pamilya of 6. Mura na yun. Madaming sabaw na tubig at kanin. Ngayon, mahal na ang instant noodles para sa kanila. Ang common ulam dun, yung mga tigpi-pisong chips. Yung maraming asin at betsin. Yun ihahalo nila sa kanin para may lasa)

Just things to ponder Cathy. Again I'm not judging. Just giving a different unsolicited perspective from a tsikot friend.

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I know how it is like to lose almost everything. I always ask God, bakit yung pinakamahalaga pa sakin ang kinuha. And it's nothing compared to financial issues which we also had and still have until now. Alam ko paano maghirap. That's a breeze compared to all the other problems I had to face. Nakikita ko isa isa lahat ng pinundar binebenta, just to keep our family afloat. And I feel sorry for my 90 yr old Lola.

And then for a while someone made me so happy and forgot that I was miserable. But that had to end. Because it was the right thing to do for both our sake.

In my life, happiness is fleeting.

[CVT]

Hirap ng walang ginagawa. They should grant me work from home days

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Sa US, you can request to work from home of you do not have not water in your place.... 😉

However work from home is almost universal in that area...

[Wh1stl3r]

I actually think the opposite. You seem to be handling it relatively well. It takes strength of character to do that.

When I was going through something similar I was a wreck and could barely function. My only friends that time were Johnny and Jack.

And yes (thank you remzam) I was just trying to change your perspective on things. No matter what we are going through, how bad it seems, someone else will have it worse.

If you keep on looking at what others have vs what you have you will never be happy.

Now would be a good time to focus on the good things you have. Your family, your boss, your friends, etc.

In this board some guys may not admit it, but you bring people together here. Pag puro lalaki kasi madalas napupunta lang sa away ang usapan.

Some of the guys here don't know exactly what is going on so please cut them some slack.

It's also a guy thing to roast each other a bit when they're down sometimes, because to us it's funny.

[CVT]

But why are there bad people who have all the luck and happiness in the world?



If only you knew my life story. Kaya I don't like getting close to people and I rarely open up kasi kaawaan lang ako.



I know how it is like to lose almost everything. I always ask God, bakit yung pinakamahalaga pa sakin ang kinuha. And it's nothing compared to financial issues which we also had and still have until now. Alam ko paano maghirap. That's a breeze compared to all the other problems I had to face. Nakikita ko isa isa lahat ng pinundar binebenta, just to keep our family afloat. And I feel sorry for my 90 yr old Lola.

And then for a while someone made me so happy and forgot that I was miserable. But that had to end. Because it was the right thing to do for both our sake.

In my life, happiness is fleeting.

The candle light at St Patrick's is eternal....

[_Cathy_]

I actually think the opposite. You seem to be handling it relatively well. It takes strength of character to do that.

When I was going through something similar I was a wreck and could barely function. My only friends that time were Johnny and Jack.

And yes (thank you remzam) I was just trying to change your perspective on things. No matter what we are going through, how bad it seems, someone else will have it worse.

If you keep on looking at what others have vs what you have you will never be happy.

Now would be a good time to focus on the good things you have. Your family, your boss, your friends, etc.

In this board some guys may not admit it, but you bring people together here. Pag puro lalaki kasi madalas napupunta lang sa away ang usapan.

Some of the guys here don't know exactly what is going on so please cut them some slack.

It's also a guy thing to roast each other a bit when they're down sometimes, because to us it's funny.

I had a death wish when I was younger and drove like a mad woman. I've been miserable for almost 2 decades and I'm close to giving up.

I would tell God, at a very young age, quota na ko sa paghihirap but it does NOT seem to stop. Uls knows my life story and he can attest to that. And you know what hurts the most? When people see me they think I am SHALLOW because of the way I look or act? But people have no idea how much problems I carry in my life.

Just an an example people would say "swerte unica hija" BUT do they know how much of a big responsibility it is and how difficult it is for an only child to take care of ageing parents? I have no siblings na kaagapay. And the anxiety I face everyday fearing the loss of the my nuclear family because they are all I have and they are ageing. Hindi naman nakikita ng mga nagco comment na "swerte" ko.

This board is my ONLY outlet for my thoughts and feelings because here I am anonymous. The exact reason why I do NOT do meet ups. People who know me personally know how very reserved I am. I don't like opening myself up because that makes me feel vulnerable and I don't like that feeling. I don't like getting attached because I've suffered too many losses in my life

And then I decided to take a chance and make myself vulnerable and then my heart got shattered into pieces. I would like to think matino akong babae and I was so careful in opening up myself to someone but why is my heart broken now? I don't deserve that at all. But why did it happen to me still.

[_Cathy_]

The candle light at St Patrick's is eternal....

Thank you, you're a good friend. Please pray for my emotional healing and good health for my family.

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Cath. Take a leave sa office then go out the country.


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[minicarph]

Nababaliw na ata ako Kanina naiiyak ako tapos may pinaalala si ULS bigla naman ako natawa

di ka naman nag-iisa, dami na ganyan ngaun

[minicarph]

she's going thru something now

could be lovelife

it seems she has signs of clinical depression

wala siya gana sa mga bagay bagay na she used to routinely do like clean her car and take care of her dog

wala din siya gana sa work or mag work

i told her nga i was surprised she got herself out of bed today to go to the office

sabi nga niya napapansin ng mga officemates niya malungkot at tahimik siya and they're trying to cheer her up and feed her

sabi din niya gusto niya matulog nang matulog

those are classic signs of clinical depression

ayaw naman niya magpatingin sa professional

sabi nila pag depressed, may nagsisimula tumor na sa body na lalabas later on in life. depression is prelude to cancer.