wow.... teka... alwayz_yummy, parang kinuwento mo buhay ko ah...

we're almost the same, i swear. My dad den ganyan. BUHAY BINATA. And my mom spent her life praying and hoping and thinking na magbabago pa sha. (She's still hoping and praying and still thinking, btw) I grew up hating my dad, cuz i can't help it. He gives me reason to hate him. I grew up without any good memory with him. He was never really a dad. Although hindi sha nag abroad he was never really around. He thinks nothing but money. When we all had our talk (cuz my mom wants him to leave) he doesn't even want to talk about family matters, all he wanted to know is kung paano na ang company!? He even wants to divide the assets. Talk about not caring. If your dad is packing na, yung mom ko dito sha na mismo ang nagpack ng things ng dad ko.... Ngayon, since i'm working for my dad, we get along well (for business sake). Parang wala lang. Status-quo. Parang nde kame mag ama. yun na lang. My sister and my dad stopped talking to each other na den. Nagalit sister ko when my dad yelled at us and said "walang kwenta tong pamilyang to... they've stopped talking for 5 years now. Even sa ken i recently learned na may galit sa ken dad ko, it started daw when i was 9 yrs old! As if namang i plotted to ruin his life when i was a kid! Hay madami pa. but you get the drift.

I know how you feel grabe. I know the feeling of trying not to hate your own father but you can't help it. In my heart naman i don't really hate (if you know what i mean), like you sobrang naiinis na den ako sa dad ko. I'm really concerned with how my dad is running his life and how his twisted mind works. I still continue to pray for him. God comforts me when it comes to this drama in my life. I'll pray for you and your family as well. Just want you to know nde ka nag iisa.