just an update:
she broke up with me already and it's really painful.
she said she can't risk it all for me kahit na mahal niya ako and the thought of what her parents might think about us scares the hell out of her daw. she acknowledges that it's her fault and she apologized for hurting me and not treating me the way that i deserved.
i have no other recourse but to let her go na coz nasasaktan na rin ako sa nangyayari. i guess kahit gaano niya ako kamahal, the thought of what other people might say about our huge age gap really worries her alot. dati nabanggit na rin niya yan when she broked up with me. tpos yung magiging reaction pa ng magulang niya and the fact that she hasn't gotten over her ex yet.
i guess what's left of me is that i tried my best and give my all to prove to her my sincerity. i guess time will tell kung siya ba talaga para sa akin. i still love her very much and i can't deny the fact that i would still hope that she'll have a change of heart but i won't expect.
thank you all for sharing your advice and opinions.