How do you feel right now?

[_Cathy_]

Melancholic. Happiness is fleeting in my life. Makes me wonder what the hell I did to deserve this kind of existence.

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[uls]

don't rely on moments that make you "happy"

somebody you like sent you a message, someone gave you a gift, a package arrived, your boss said something, etcetera etcetera

the effect of those are fleeting

the novelty wears off quick

[ninjababez]

^SO magic not working cathy?

[_Cathy_]

don't rely on moments that make you "happy"

somebody you like sent you a message, someone gave you a gift, a package arrived, your boss said something, etcetera etcetera

the effect of those are fleeting

the novelty wears off quick

And that somebody I like is gone.

I have no other source of happiness. I think I'm in a constant state of sadness and it's those things you mentioned that lifts me up, but like you said, it wears off quickly. It can't sustain my happiness.

I'm giving up on finding happiness. I don't know why life is so cruel to me. I only want the person who makes me happy but why can't I have him. I've gone through so much pain in my life and it looks like it will be like that until the day I die. I give on love, being a housewife, being a mother, having a life. I won't take my own life because that is a sin, I will just go through the motions, but that's it. I don't have hope anymore.

But really, hindi ko talaga maintindihan why life is so cruel to me.

^SO magic not working cathy?

He's gone as well. I told him it's crush that I love. I know I really hurt him. Even our friends, hindi na niya kinakausap. Hirap din ng wala siya, wala akong matawagan to cry my heart out. Umiiyak na lang ako ditto sa desk ko magisa.

[uls]

And that somebody I like is gone.

I have no other source of happiness. I think I'm in a constant state of sadness and it's those things you mentioned that lifts me up, but like you said, it wears off quickly. It can't sustain my happiness.

that's explains why you keep shopping online

it gives you a dopamine high when packages arrive

when you open the packages, seeing and holding what you bought, then you put it away... the novelty wears off

then you shop again... chasing that feeling again....

[maxpedition]

that's explains why you keep shopping online

it gives you a dopamine high when packages arrive

when you open the packages, seeing and holding what you bought, then you put it away... the novelty wears off

then you shop again... chasing that feeling again....

Haha you got it right bro [emoji106]

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[_Cathy_]

that's explains why you keep shopping online

it gives you a dopamine high when packages arrive

when you open the packages, seeing and holding what you bought, then you put it away... the novelty wears off

then you shop again... chasing that feeling again....

I can't even sleep in my bed anymore, nakatambak na lahat in my bed and my Mom is pissed that I have stuff in all rooms at home. I get a lot of gifts from my family and friends din (and I am thankful)

But it's not just stuff that give me my bursts of happiness. Si SO, during the first few weeks, he made me happy, but still not enough.

My fat lab, my friends, my family, my boss, but still they can't give me the happiness that I want. Iba yung happiness from being in love. Even my Mom said that, how she wants me to experience what she had with my Dad.

[benchph1]

And that somebody I like is gone.

I have no other source of happiness. I think I'm in a constant state of sadness and it's those things you mentioned that lifts me up, but like you said, it wears off quickly. It can't sustain my happiness.

I'm giving up on finding happiness. I don't know why life is so cruel to me. I only want the person who makes me happy but why can't I have him. I've gone through so much pain in my life and it looks like it will be like that until the day I die. I give on love, being a housewife, being a mother, having a life. I won't take my own life because that is a sin, I will just go through the motions, but that's it. I don't have hope anymore.

But really, hindi ko talaga maintindihan why life is so cruel to me.



He's gone as well. I told him it's crush that I love. I know I really hurt him. Even our friends, hindi na niya kinakausap. Hirap din ng wala siya, wala akong matawagan to cry my heart out. Umiiyak na lang ako ditto sa desk ko magisa.

Whenever you feel sad, think about the other people that are in worse conditions than you.

Some people dont even have a roof under their head, dont eat three meals a day, and some are afflicted with a critical illness.

Just think you are still lucky.


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[12vdc]

Patience is a virtue



BTT: sick, got flu from people

[minicarph]

I can't even sleep in my bed anymore, nakatambak na lahat in my bed and my Mom is pissed that I have stuff in all rooms at home. I get a lot of gifts from my family and friends din (and I am thankful)

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parang ambaho mo tignan nyan tapos depress kapa, naliligo ka pa ba?

[ray_noel]

Happy, 1 week more and vacation at last...
Tugs tugs tugs... splash splash splash...


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[_Cathy_]

Whenever you feel sad, think about the other people that are in worse conditions than you.

Some people dont even have a roof under their head, dont eat three meals a day, and some are afflicted with a critical illness.

Just think you are still lucky.

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That's what my Mom always tells me. But we have different thresholds of pain. Also, if a person is used to something then you would not know what you are missing out. For example, I know a girl who grew up well off, she had her own driver, when their family lost money, she had to drive herself (which she refused to do) I know some people will say buti nga may kotse pa siya but for someone who got used to living a certain lifestyle, that's a major adjustment and I would understand if she will feel depressed about it.

Also, I'm not a jealous type of person pero pag nakakakita ako sa TV, mga ini interview kahit sa low income areas, kumpleto sila magkakasama sa bahay until the grandparents, maraming magkakapatid, may mga bata sa bahay, maingay, masaya. Nainggit ako. Kahit hindi sila 3 meals a day at sira sira bahay, at least malaki silang pamilya.

It was really crush that made me so happy, I've had relationships before but he gave me a happiness that came from within. He made me feel like I finally got what I wanted in life. Why can't I have my true love? Ang dami dyan, teens pa lang they met their true love na. Ako, sangkatutak na failed relationships at disappointments. And I wanted to marry my 1st BF, but that did not happen. My life did not go according to plan

parang ambaho mo tignan nyan tapos depress kapa, naliligo ka pa ba?

Yes. I have to go to work because it's the only thing that gives a sense of normalcy in my life

[benchph1]

That's what my Mom always tells me. But we have different thresholds of pain. Also, if a person is used to something then you would not know what you are missing out. For example, I know a girl who grew up well off, she had her own driver, when their family lost money, she had to drive herself (which she refused to do) I know some people will say buti nga may kotse pa siya but for someone who got used to living a certain lifestyle, that's a major adjustment and I would understand if she will feel depressed about it.

Also, I'm not a jealous type of person pero pag nakakakita ako sa TV, mga ini interview kahit sa low income areas, kumpleto sila magkakasama sa bahay until the grandparents, maraming magkakapatid, may mga bata sa bahay, maingay, masaya. Nainggit ako. Kahit hindi sila 3 meals a day at sira sira bahay, at least malaki silang pamilya.

It was really crush that made me so happy, I've had relationships before but he gave me a happiness that came from within. He made me feel like I finally got what I wanted in life. Why can't I have my true love? Ang dami dyan, teens pa lang they met their true love na. Ako, sangkatutak na failed relationships at disappointments. And I wanted to marry my 1st BF, but that did not happen. My life did not go according to plan



Yes. I have to go to work because it's the only thing that gives a sense of normalcy in my life

Does your family know what you are going through? If yes then thats another reason to be thankful for. Their efforts to keep you sane. If No then maybe you can open up to them.

Not sure if you’re a catholic, but now is also a time to talk to the big man upstairs.


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[_Cathy_]

Does your family know what you are going through? If yes then thats another reason to be thankful for. Their efforts to keep you sane. If No then maybe you can open up to them.

Not sure if you’re a catholic, but now is also a time to talk to the big man upstairs.

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I don't know about my family. I think I need to go to a psychiatrist but my Mom is in denial. I just want to sleep and sleep and sleep because when I am asleep I don't feel pain. I'm really sad why my life turned out this way. Minsan naisip ko yung last episode ko ng anaphylaxis, would it have been better if I did not make it to the ER.

[ray_noel]

I don't know about my family. I think I need to go to a psychiatrist but my Mom is in denial. I just want to sleep and sleep and sleep because when I am asleep I don't feel pain. I'm really sad why my life turned out this way. Minsan naisip ko yung last episode ko ng anaphylaxis, would it have been better if I did not make it to the ER.

HAve you tried going to physchologist or counselling? Psychiatrist bibigyan ka agad ng medicine kasi... yan ang alam ko sa kanila...


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[_Cathy_]

HAve you tried going to physchologist or counselling? Psychiatrist bibigyan ka agad ng medicine kasi... yan ang alam ko sa kanila...


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Sa priest, but how can I open up e family friend namin

My Mom is in denial that something is wrong with me and she does want me to see a psychiatrist for that reason as well, she does not like psych meds (some have suicidal side effects daw) But I really don't know how to manage myself anymore. I seem okay to people not close to me but I am dead inside.

[StockEngine]

Sa priest, but how can I open up e family friend namin

My Mom is in denial that something is wrong with me and she does want me to see a psychiatrist for that reason as well, she does not like psych meds (some have suicidal side effects daw) But I really don't know how to manage myself anymore. I seem okay to people not close to me but I am dead inside.

its 4am... your addiction is killing you.

[_Cathy_]

its 4am... your addiction is killing you.

I don't care anymore what happens to my health/body.

[benchph1]

I don't know about my family. I think I need to go to a psychiatrist but my Mom is in denial. I just want to sleep and sleep and sleep because when I am asleep I don't feel pain. I'm really sad why my life turned out this way. Minsan naisip ko yung last episode ko ng anaphylaxis, would it have been better if I did not make it to the ER.

Sometimes having someone to listen to matters a lot. If you think a psychiatrist will help, please do.

Dont be like that, if i was your brother and i learned about your intentions i would have knocked some sense into you. Kung meron lang button dito to “send hugs”...i think you need one right now..


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[_Cathy_]

Sometimes having someone to listen to matters a lot. If you think a psychiatrist will help, please do.

Dont be like that, if i was your brother and i learned about your intentions i would have knocked some sense into you. Kung meron lang button dito to “send hugs”...i think you need one right now..


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Thanks. I woke up with a fever. I'm like this when I am so upset, it manifests physically.

Double whammy pa emotional pain ko because even my new crush disappeared on me, don't know what I did wrong, and he is the only guy who listens to me talk about crush the whole day.

So tired of crying and I have to put on a brave face when I go to work, I have to because I have deadlines to meet.