Are you serious? I've made thousands of posts about us and you still think this is a one way thing?
Nagsasawa na rin ako explaining. I am not even supposed to post about him anymore. But I just have to defend myself. I'm not crazy to go on depression over him if he did not make me feel loved. He made a huge impact on me. Bakit? Kasi I felt like wala na talaga kwenta buhay ko but he made me alive again.
And BTW, not all men would jump into bed with a woman just because he can. I've been in several relationships my entire life and my condition was that I will save myself for marriage and they all respected that. The only difference with crush was that I didn't want to save it anymore. This is the chemistry I am talking about, I was so passionate for him that the mere sight of him and sound of his voice made me want to jump into bed with him. I know you were not at the forum long enough pero may mga nagalit na rin sakin because I practically had a stick up my *ss. I was kinda judgmental of couples who engaged in PMS. But now I understand.
I've posted this so many times. Matagal ko na siyang crush but the first time we interacted it was as if I heard the song "Zoom" playing in the background. The sky was bluer. The sun was brighter. I am not a writer but I am sure you know what I mean. May chemistry not just ***ually but even emotionally and intellectually, I was interested in everything he had to say and his presence gave me comfort.
Any person can say "Cathy, don't worry" or "Cathy, I'll take care for you". It does nothing for me. It's just words of comfort. But when crush says it to me, I actually feel comfort and I do know it's going to be better. ONLY 3 MEN in my entire life can do that to me: My Dad, My Kuya and Crush.
Only my unicorn friend has seen crush and it will stay that way. Unfortunately for me, she thinks he is good looking. The family my unicorn friend belongs to is known for their good looks so she has standards (shadow and uls can attest kasi they know the family) Sabi nga niya, without looking at his photo, "specs" pa lang, alam na niya sa guapo. LOL!
I'm glad nga you are active at the forum, kasi may babae who will understand my perspective. Kahit naging pangit, mataba, maitim or mapimple pa siya (buti na lang no chance pa lumiit siya), I would be just as crazy for him. It's his "pagkatao" that made me love him. Yung intellect, strength in character, breeding, discipline, integrity, just a few traits I admire about him. He is so selfless pa, he prioritizes my happiness and satisfaction over himself. You know what I mean.
Also, he is a powerful man and that turns me on so much. Imagine, a man that leads hundreds of people and works with tycoons/industrialists in this country, at the end of the work day he will say that he looks forward to spending time with you because you are his stress reliever. It melts my heart. Kung tambay sa bahay or someone with a mediocre job says that, wala naman impact e. LOL! Girl ka, I'm sure maiintindihan mo ako
Anyway, I'm glad I am taking steps na to get him out of my system. I'm just thankful that our paths crossed and he let me know how it feels like to be truly in love.