I have abandonment trauma in my youth kaya I don't take rejection as well as normal people do.
Saka diba if I guy cares for a girl, kayo magi initiate? He did not do that so I assume he does not care anymore so I am sparing myself from rejection. There were many times when I was tempted to communicate with him but my logic takes over my emotions.
Yup, I think I am really physically addicted to him on top of the emotional feeling. I was a serial dater in my youth and I'm not proud of it, but I realized na iba talaga si crush. Siguro yung body chemistry namin match? Because I felt so different with him and he gave me a feeling that no other guy has given me before. PLUS I tried to like other guys pero wala talaga
My exes know me as extremely conservative but I did a 180 with crush, total turn around talaga. There's something talaga because it was instant, the first time he spoke to me, it was as if the song "Zoom" was playing on the background.
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