My anxiety is getting worse
I woke up with shortness of breath and then I felt like throwing up and I ended up crying kasi hindi ako makahinga. It was only my second Mom who knew because she saw me hugging my fat lab to help me destress
Crush called me kanina and we talked longer, nung kausap ko siya, at first I was still having difficulty breathing but it really improved and then I felt better. He had to go na and I asked him if he can please call me on his drive home and he said he can't. I said why e we used to do that everyday (when we were together) and he said he almost got into an accident before kasi (not with me). I'm disappointed pero wala naman ako karapatan to demand, I just want more of him esp now kasi I breathe better when we talk
Anyway, nahihirapan na naman ako huminga and I feel like crying. I just want to be with him because he makes me feel better, it's sad lang that the feeling is not mutual. I still have to get used to this friendship thing