How to get over work phobia

[_Cathy_]

I found a job already. I am really thankful for that but for some reason I find myself really unhappy.

When I left my previous job 5 years ago, I felt liberated from it's highly structured culture. I thought my long break would give me a renewed enthusiasm for work but the opposite happened considering that I have less responsibility. I guess this stems from the fact that if I didn't leave my previous job I'd be getting double of what I am getting now. I couldn't demand for a higher pay despit my MBA degree because of my long work gap. But the more compelling reason why I am dissatisfied is that I do not want structure anymore. I want a job that gives me the luxury of planning my own schedule. Imagine being sick and instead of worrying about yourself, you worry about how your boss might react when you take a leave. I work with numbers the whole day and I don't even know what they represent. I cannot even go to the gym anymore. Another thing is dealing with difficult officemates. And the politics.

My option is to teach in a college or university but I think I'm still not qualified because I don't have educ or phd units. I guess I'd be happier there even with lower pay. I was thinking that I could also use this as leverage when I apply for work residency abroad. I never thought I would say that (consider leaving Manila) but all my friends are leaving na rin naman.

I am also considering a job in research but I haven't heard from them yet. I heard you could learn a lot of things and you could even take a leave for 2 months! Wow! That would be nice.

I am also considering blogging. Do you guys have any idea how much I could earn from that?

Do you guys have any other suggestions on jobs that has freedom of time and less structure? BTW I hate sales.

I placed my lotto bet a while ago. I am that desperate. Maybe I'd win and I'd be able to put up my dream gym business already. I love the thought of staying in the gym the whole day, socializing with the members and getting feedback on my business.