How do you feel right now?

[_Cathy_]

I'm so disappointed in my ex. I don't want to bad mouth him to any of my friends BUT since I am anonymous here, I just want to let it out.

HINDI MAASAHAN! Such a weak personality, I wasted my youth on this person thinking that he will change. I am the most low maintenance GF in the world because of him. Just as an example. In our 5 yrs together NEVER ako nasundo or naihatid sa school. I was never the type pero mga times na wala akong auto or nasiraan ako ng auto, IBA ang tinatawagan ko kasi alam ko wala akong maaasahan sa kanya!

My maternal lola passed away and he did not even make the effort to attend the wake. It's as if he is allergic to the socialization.

Nung nagkasakit ako last year, sino tinawagan ko para dalhin ako sa hospital? si 50 yr old friend ko! Kaya kahit minamanyak ako nun, he is still a friend to me. Yung ex ko, ilang beses yan, tinawagan ko kung pwede ako dalhin na ER, pero he would say it will take him a longer time to arrive kaya Tita ko na lang tawagan ko. This was during the time that my family was in the US.

He's JOBLESS since he finished his Master's and now he is in his mid 40s and all he does is DL movies and music, workout and travel with his family! I broke up with him out of frustration, natapos na ko ng MBA at lahat, nag work na ko, siya jobless pa rin!

I told myself I will try to move on and forget about crush. BUT in the few months that we were close he made me feel protected and safe and I have proven na maasahan ko siya. I don't even have to ask! Now I feel stupid for losing him! People might wonder why I am so crazy for him? His looks are secondary, it's his character that I fell in love with. He is strong, decisive and protective.

Etong ex ko na kilala ko na since 2004, mahihiya ka talaga humingi ng favor. Pararamdam niya talaga na manliliit ka when you ask a favor especially when it has to with his friends. Buti pa nga yung best friend niya tinulungan ako sa problema ko sa Altis ko. Mas maasikaso pa yung best friend niya kesa sa kanya. I did not even know he had a friend that was good with cars kasi madamot siya when it comes to that. He does not like asking favors and he does not like giving favors I suppose.

And he has 2 lawyer friends! Ateneo law and UP law! Even when I had an issue with our tenant, magtanong lang sa mga kaibigan niya na abogado hindi niya magawa. Now I ask him for a small favor if he can ask his lawyer friend from Ateneo regarding the estimate for the estate tax, aba, nag lawyering na. Napikon ako dahil alam ko saan pupunta usapan, alam na niya ang sagot kaya di na kailangan tanungin kaibigan niya!

Anong feeling ko ngayon? Awang awa at galit na galit ako sa sarili ko. I had this one good person in my life and I let him go. And now he is gone.