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January 21st, 2007 10:11 PM #1
There was once a time that I believed
that everything that I have planned
will be reached or be almost reached.
It was a time for great dreams and
great opportunities. But as days go by,
as nights fade the twinking sunlights,
as months followed the dwindling light,
then years have all gone passed, not
everything that you have hoped for has
been fulfilled. You began to question
how would you proceed and what are you
going to do. Do you have to compromise?
Do you have to sacrifice some beliefs
that you have thought to be important
and central to your life just to make
all things possible?
There is nothing wrong in trying your
best to achieve what is right for you
but is it really all worth it? You have
sacrificed so much just for the sake of
following what you believe that you did
not realize that you have already hurt
those that are important to you. Then
you realize this mistake then sulk
yourself into desperation and trying to
unthink what has already gone to past.
I have focused on too much things that
I think are important but were not. I
have spent so many countless times
thinking of outcomes and what-if's
instead of moving forward. I have
believed that I did not succeed because
of failures and of setting high
standard goals. I have spend much time
on play and food and material things
just to negate the sad effects of what
was experienced. I tried so in vain to
save relationships and what-if
relationships that further put me into
desperation and to a sea of void.
Then it hit me... is it my myself who
is making all of these? Is it because
of this paradigm that I have been
plagued of too many questions of
everything that has happened in my
life? I look again and see what I have
achieved. Everything that was not
planned have passed but what have I
become of it. I am still here. I have
acheved successes that I just deemed
nothing. I have touched peoples lives
like no other but fail to realize how
important it was to others. I have made
such strides and improvements on myself
that I thought was just trivial. I have
become a part of other peoples lives
and contributed to their well being. I
have made carrer advances that I never
before thought of. I have become
something that was not planned but is
it not better than what was before?
I have missed so many opportunities
because of may naive and thin belief of
following a path... a plan... I
suffered form this unrealistic approach
and did not accept change.
I am now standing here. I have made
choices in life... big choices. Now I
stand before again another big choice.
I will not let this opportunity to
pass. I have found something in all of
my years in life I have been looking
for in vain to those I thought would
have given to me. It is another special
gift that God has given me. The
question is will I throw this away
again like I did to the many that was
given to me before? Is God angry of me
because of my stubborness and short
sightedness that I have disregarded all
beautiful that He gave me?
I already paid for my sins. But I have
also learned a great deal from them.
This time I will not make that same
mistake! I will take care of the gift
that was given to me right now. This
will be the best thing that ever has
happened to me in my continuing
existence.
Now is a new beginning for me... and I will never
let go of a beautiful gift again...
- Josh0027
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January 22nd, 2007 12:21 AM #2
pre mukang sineryoso mo sinabi ko na mag soul searching ka na lang ah dun sa kabila thread
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January 22nd, 2007 07:35 AM #5
Valentine's Day Syndrome?
Or, the effect of tsikot being down for a day?
Nice one!
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January 22nd, 2007 01:30 PM #7
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January 22nd, 2007 01:34 PM #8
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as an aside, in the olden days, anyone who does not move 'ala luksa during Holy Week, especially...
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