First love? hmmm.. let me remember. Nasa elementary school ako. Me and this girl exchange gifts and love letter in class. We're too shy to talk to each other so we express everything through love letters. Pagka-graduate ko sa grade 6, lumipat ako sa ibang highschool. Siya naman bumalik sa New York with her family. 2 years later nag-migrate kami sa New York (coincidence?) pero siya bumalik sa pinas. habang nasa states ako, yung sister ko nagaaral pa sa manila. My girl wrote me another love letter. My sister kept it hidden from me because she though she's not good enough for me. The last time I went back to pinas, I found out she married one of guys I knew in school. They had a kid, migrated to the US and got divorced in a couple of years. Only after they got married, my sister handed me that letter.
What could have been, what should have been, but didn't.....
So everyone is excited about a project. one of the organizers called a meeting thru YM since the people can't meet personally. then nung nagYM na... there is this 2 person na parang nagkabangaan in short nagdeadlock sila so yun organizers YM me in private and told me na kausapin ko raw yun isa.. e di si ako kausap naman,..... siyempre todo pakiusap na wag bibitaw kesyo kailangan siya sa team ek ek. so yun di naman bumitaw..
as the project went thru.. lagi ko siyang k Chat tapos minsan text kung minsan telephone... so in short medyo close kami.. ayun.. nafefeel ko naiinlove na yata ako sa kanya kaya lang that time parang ganito
"I LOVE HER but SHE LOVES somebody else" and turns out that a common denominator so siyempre.. ayoko makagulo so tahimik ako.. then the event came.. I came late kasi ewan ko ba... then I arrive at the place.. there she was siting assisting and everything.. gulat pa nga siya inutusan ko siya ni hindi pa niya ako kialala so ayun nagpakilala I am "?????????" sabi ko AHHHHHH ikaw pala siya so ayun.... that day.. we became close kasi dahil sa priject. pero little did she know how I felt for her. time passed and days and months swerte na lang kung tawagan ako or YM pag nangyari naman yun sobra saya ko na.. pero ang backfall is yung common denominator namin ang lagi pinaguusapan " ANO BA ITO ???? HELLO PANSININ MO NAMAN AKO """ sabi ko pero sa isip lang..
Came November. She called.. then out of the blue sinabi ko na sa kanya I don't care kung magalit siya or magalit sila basta sasabihin ko... so sinabi ko sa kanya "ALAM MO IM FALLIN IN LOVE WITH YOU"
so siya naman sumakay lang... kasi feeling niya baliw lang ako... tapos that night... nagusap kami nang mahaba sa phone... ipinaliwanag ko sa kanya na what I said were true
in this exact words :
"I KNOW THAT THINGS WILL CHANGE FOR THE BOTH OF US.. IF YOU ACCEPT ME... THERE WILL BE COMPLICATIONS IF YOU DON'T YOU'LL START TO IGNORE ME.... GOD!!!!! PLEASE SAY YOU LOVE ME"
ayun tahimik siya.. so in short she accepted me.. thinking na di ako seryoso pero ngayon kami na... pwede pa bang sabihin di namin sineryoso.. thru thiick thin nandiyan siya para sa akin at ako sa kanya ang I will tend to keep it that way...