I can't shake the feeling that I used to be a lot more intelligent than I am now. When I was younger I used to debate everything, attempt to write papers whenever I had a creative thought, and I relished in besting everyone else, I had the ambition to be the top of the world some day.
Now, just a few short years later, I just feel satisfied living a normal life, with a normal job and a stable relationship. Attempting to prove my ability seems futile, there will always be better people, and if any of it gets anywhere it will be based more on luck and social connections than my ability, so why not just be happy?
But I hate feeling that my mind is not as sharp as it used to be. Sometimes I wish some crazy comic-book tragedy would happen to me, taking away everything I have, to transform me back into having my old tenacity, before I get too old to change.
-Nexialist
I feel like my intelligence is declining. I feel much less articulate than I used to, and I can't really be bothered following complex arguments or debating them anymore.
-Eddie Hitler