Sobrang hirap. Still the same. I was able to go out with my kids a week before christmas and haven't seen them anymore. I spent christmas day sa church whole afternoon. Other days I went home stayed there for a while kasi dun sila sa in-laws ko the whole vacation.
Magkikita kami ng 2 anak ko tonight new year's eve pero sa window sila ng bedroom ako sa street, I will text him pag nasa labas na daw ako. Grabe i miss them so much. I miss my wife too, pero galit pa din sya, i tried to ask her out pero no reply. I bought her favorite cheesecake for christmas pero no reaction.
Wala ako magawa but to accept this painful reality. Mahirap, it was a poor judgement on my part.