Huh? So you think it's my loss because I am the one sufferingThat helped my self esteem *sarcasm*
I felt worthless when I lost him. Wasn't I good enough for him? That was the question I kept asking myself. But I think he does not realize that I also had lot to offer.
Yes I am moving on because while I am here suffering, he is probably somewhere else having the time of his life![]()
Our situation was complicated. But I completely trust him that he knew what he was doing and what was best for us.
I wanted to tell the world how much I loved him (kaya sa Tsikot ko na lang binuhos lahat) and I would have been so proud to introduce him to my family and friends (he is a great catch)
But I kept my mouth shut. Up until now nobody except my unicorn friend knew what happened to me. Ang hirap magkimkim ng sama ng loob kaya I am so done. I would have sacrificed more if he fought for our love, pero hindi e.
How will I hurt him back when he does not even care about me anymore? He has not communicated with me in over a year. He wouldn't know if I am dead already. LOL. Also, even if I had the chance to hurt him, I will never do that. I only decided to stop hoping that he will come back and move on but that does not mean I do not love and respect him anymore.
I only got hurt twice when we had tampuhan but that hurt is absolutely nothing compared to the pain of losing him. He gave me the happiest months of my life and I will be forever grateful to him for that. Maybe most of our relationship I was frustrated because I wanted more of him, I wanted to love him more. I wanted to help him put his clothes on (and remove it lol), I wanted to wipe sweat off him when he works out, I wanted to cook his favorite food, I wanted to buy things for him, I wanted to spoil him but I could not do that. He promised he would never leave me, and I told him, even if I push him away to not give up on me - but he did
I'm also confused but what are you confused with? hehe